Working Mom

..it's not that I want to quit working, but did you come to a point where you ask yourself "when is this gonna end?"

With today's Economic Status, i bet most would say that there's no reason to even think about quitting a job. We all have bills to pay, clothings and food we have to spend on, others have rents or house loans that has to be paid for 25 years or more.

I am a first time mom. My husband and I are both working to cover our bills, and save some for our 2-year old daughter's future. And as they say, as young as she is, explain to her why mom and dad have to work, so I did. One day, my daughter saw me dressed up for work and she just won't let me. I talked to her and told that Mom has to work so we can have enough money for bills, milk and diaper. To my surprise, she threw her milk and said "i dont want my milk anymore."

More than all the deadlines and tedious paper works and reporting, i am fighting over Guilt. The guilt of knowing that I cannot be a 100% mom and wife to them. I know ny husband understands if I missed out on ironing his clothes, but how about my child? How can her young mind understand, how can I not break her young heart everyday before I go to work?

It's a stabbing pain and it never stops, I see how happy she is during weekends when we are all together. But when it's time for her to go (my inlaws picks her up very Monday and sends her back to me every Saturday), she don't look at me whenever I say goodbye to her. I know how she feels, and all I can do is cry...